8:11 p.m. - 2006-01-08
light and fog
Today was a good day.
We got up and it was sunny and mild.
For some unknown reason(okay global warming) it has been unseasonably warm so much so that my winter jacket is too much! It is suppose to be plus ten this Friday.
Im in Canada this just does not happen.
Although Im not complaining one bit Iam concerned that this is a sign that we have indeed messed up this plantet beyond repair.
But that is an other entry.
We walked down to Whole Foods. Just before entering I said "I hope there are a lot of samples" and just like that I wasted a wish! It was sample maddness! We had 4 types of bread, 4 types of cheese, whipped cream with spiced cherries, salt and vinegar chips, salsa and nachos, crackers, truffles! It was so much food we didnt bother to have lunch!
I returned some stuff to H&M. I dont think I mentioned it but on NewYears Eve I flipped though my closet and decided I didnt have a thing to wear.
This of course was at 4:30.
I hopped on the subway and went to H&M picked out several things and tried them on and got a tank top sort of thing that is tight under the boobs therefore making it floaty around the belly which hides the belly and makes it possible to eat lots of cheese.
Anyhow I went to put it on a second time and the ribbon under the boobs broke off in my hand. Since I still had the receipt I exchanged it.
We went to the designer Winners to get some workout pants. They had lots of fun stuff that I wanted. Including some Coach clogs that J said were hideous but I secretly liked. I saw some Kate Spade shoes too but only in passing. Really I only want the Coach clogs to say I have them shhh.
They had bikinis. Lily Pullizer bikinis that were pink with green fishes and amazingly cute. And Leberjay bras, which are usually very $$ but only 40$ there.
It is an amazing store.
I got 16 dollar workout pants.
They make my bum look small.
Then we went to The Bay so I could get a sports bra. Ive never had one and let me just say that the silouette they create is not very sexy.
J's parents bought him some chocolate Lucky Charms while they were in the states. As well as Vanilla Creme Miniwheats and peanut butter cookie crisp. YUM.
Im a little disturbed by the box of Lucky Charms as Lucky the Leprechan is um...well black.
I suppose it is suppose to be that the chocolate rainbow of marshmallows is casting a chocolate glow on him but it seems a little well...not thought out very well by the people in the graphics department down at General Mills. Its very odd.
Right now at my work Iam finaggling my way into the licensing department.
Iam making myself indespensible Iam making sure that Iam "working for what Im worth and not what Im paid" etc. etc. I really need for at the end of this month for them to hire me on fulltime with benefits.
It is really horrible when you are at work and you are feverish and sicker than sick but if you leave you will not be paid. I cannot wait until I can buy birthcontrol for 4 dollars again!
I think they should just hire me because I saved their lives! Really that should be enough for them to go
"lets hire her and pay her a million dollars a year and she only has to come in 3 times a week...she saved our lives!"
Seriously. Although I know they wont. I should atleast get a good bonus.
Plus as we all know I hate moving into a new job.
I recently found out that two people I worked with are now at the place that I almost went to work at when I got this job. One of the guys I really really like the other..was a girl who really rubbed me the wrong way, she was always complaining. I know I complain a lot but on the other hand I also know how lucky Iam.
One thing that I rarely mention here is the overwhelming joy i can feel about things that are so basic and simple, which is probably why I dont mention them!
Like when dogs are happy and playing.
How the street lights look through fog.
How the sunset is sometimes pink.
How fat squirrels get in the winter.
That I wake up every day and know that Im still breathing.
A lot of things bring me little pieces of happiness.
Little stabs of it.
And thats okay.
I know that for all the misery and sadness I feel for no reason other than chemical reactions, someone has it worse, someone has lost someone they love to violence, there are wars happening, people are being tortured, horrible things are happening to innocent people. And its not fair.
And Im just lucky to be able to see some lights through fog.
